Today I finished week 39, which leaves 13 weeks to go. I am 75% done. I am starting the last lap. 3\/4 seems like a lot, and yet so far at the same time. But I think this part will move fast.<\/p>\n
My oncologist has warned me of several things: <\/p>\n
1. it was going to get harder through months 6-9, and then stay about the same, or maybe *feel* a little bit better for the last three months. It is unclear whether this is the body adapting on a physical basis, or a psychological basis, but it feels like it will be true.<\/p>\n
2. he warned me that my anxiety would continue to increase as I approached the end of the treatment. That part would crescendo, only to disappear completely within two or three days of the last injection. I can say for sure that my anxiety is ramping up. So much that I am starting to notice the anxiety transform into paranoia. O has noticed it too. Little things, like misreading emails, or worrying too much about a botched communication as symbolic of some other relational disconnect. Plus I am still kind of irritable from the IFN and the Atarax (that I am taking every few days as needed), so I don’t have that much patience.<\/p>\n
anyway, 13 weeks left. Three months. The bulk of the last month of which I will be in Portland. So two+ months. The weeks just go by.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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