I don’t quite understand, but Saturdays are the hardest day of the week.\u00c2\u00a0 I make it through a whole week of infusions with high energy and good spirits, and then Saturday I crash hard.\u00c2\u00a0 Same as the previous weeks.\u00c2\u00a0 I sleep in way too late.\u00c2\u00a0 Have no energy.\u00c2\u00a0 Cry for no reason.\u00c2\u00a0 Can’t eat.\u00c2\u00a0 No fun.<\/p>\n
Today the plan was to go to the beach.\u00c2\u00a0 Really, it was my brother’s plan.\u00c2\u00a0 To take KM to the Oregon coast, and to let one of the dogs play in the wet and.\u00c2\u00a0 I was the limiting factor.\u00c2\u00a0 He kept asking me if i was ready yet.\u00c2\u00a0 I was still in my bathrobe.\u00c2\u00a0 I knew that we were going to be getting there really late.\u00c2\u00a0 I felt pressure.\u00c2\u00a0 And then I started crying.\u00c2\u00a0 I didn’t want to hold them back, but I aslo wanted to go.\u00c2\u00a0 I also didnt want to go, but I didn’t want to give up and not go.\u00c2\u00a0 Oh, what a jumble in my head.<\/p>\n
I did go.\u00c2\u00a0 It was worth it.\u00c2\u00a0 The wind was strong.\u00c2\u00a0 The ocean was big. The dog was really happy. I slept on the way there and the way back.<\/p>\n
x left this morning (no beach), P left to be with his girlfriend’s family last night, and KM leaves tomorrow morning at some really early time.\u00c2\u00a0 LK and I are going to hang out on Monday, but other than that, my friends have returned home.\u00c2\u00a0 I am, of course, a little bit sad from that.\u00c2\u00a0 But I also know that I have all my friends in NYC when I return.\u00c2\u00a0 Seven days.<\/p>\n
I’m feeling really stifled by my family right now.\u00c2\u00a0 I know they don’t mean to.\u00c2\u00a0 But it happens. I’m really looking forward to going back to my regular life.<\/p>\n
That said, I’m scared to have to take responsibility for so much of what my mother has been helping me with.\u00c2\u00a0 From helping me figure out what I could possibly eat, to making it, to doing my laundry, to supporting me emotionally.\u00c2\u00a0 NYC\/Brooklyn is going to be a culture shock.\u00c2\u00a0 It is going to be hard again.\u00c2\u00a0 And there are going to be lots of people.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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