an update

almost down to 8 weeks.

i’m falling apart, but the end is so totally in sight. then i will come back together

my mouth is so raw that i can’t eat much of anything. even sucking on the straw of a smoothie hurts my tongue from the pressure. i’ve def lost a lot of weight. there is some symmetry, as i started the whole thing lying in bed eating trail mix and put on 15, so it makes sense that i would end the cycle dropping those 15 off.

i had to buy some fat pants this winter. size 35 and 36. right before i got sick i bough a whole new set of pants that were 31 and 32 (and still have their tags on them), as I had just shrunk enough that my regular 33-34s were falling off me. So i just tried on my 33s and 34s, and they are kinda baggy. but the 32s are still just a little too tight. a month ago, i couldn’t button the 32s – the gap was like a full inch from button to eyelet. now they button, but tightly. a little bit too much panty line from behind (LOL)

i’ve been riding my bike a bit. and O just formally moved in this month. she got a tenure track job, which is a *major* deal considering it is only 1hr outside of NYC, and the market this year was horrendous. Half the searches were canceled b/c of the Great Recession.

i’m taking 4 months off from the studio. and i’ll tack those four months on Oct-Jan. i need to rest

i’m going to portland july1-aug15 to do my last month of treatment, and then recouperate for a few weeks. last day of injections is july 23rd.

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I am 30 year old Brooklynite who was diagnosed with Stage III Melanoma in February 2008. I started this blog after the first day of high dose Interferon chemotherapy in June 2008.

3 thoughts on “an update”

  1. you know, this post is full of things worth commenting on, but despite the importance of your body-situation, I have to say, I am most struck by O getting a tenure track job! ohmygosh, tell her congratulations from me, someone she does not know. I’m AMAZED. I got NOTHING. 20 applications…and NOTHING. so, YAY for her, and also congrats on moving in!

    now back to listening to kids on my street drag racing scooters that run on lawnmower engines, as far as I can tell…

  2. woot! so much good news in one update.

    I am so happy to hear O moved in and things are going so well for her/you/each other. Getting a tenure anytime is big but getting one right now is insanely amazing. congrats to her!!

    I am so happy to hear happy things. You’re almost done!!!!

  3. Hey, ladies. It’s a little late, but I’ve been meaning to post for a while to say thanks for the kind words and congratulations. It’s been a crazy year for M and myself, but things are on the right track and–if this year has been one of the hardest of our lives–we think next year’s going to be super awesome! It’s nice to have the support of good friends though. It makes a huge difference.

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