Slept all day from an asskicking

I had a really bad ass kicking last night. fever and chills, and shaking, and everything. I haven’t had it that bad since the last time I had to pause my treatment… 6 or 7 months ago. O held me tight, but I still felt like I was freezing. and shaking. Slept in, got up, went back to sleep, got up, and went back to sleep. finally came to around 430, disoriented and sore. feel like i got run over by a train. spent.

im ok

sorry to scare some of you by writing a dramatic post, and then going off the air.  i’m okay.  just been laying low this past week.

i spent a lot of energy explaining my current situation to all of the people around me.  friends, colleagues, collaborators.

finished week 12.  11 weeks left.

feeling like i might be getting sick, so trying to lay low.

oh, and my psychiatrist gave me new meds.  i’m officially on anti-psychotics.  seroquel.  i’m only taking a baby dose of 25mg. a proper psychotic would be taking 600mgs.  i guess i’m not a proper psychotic yet.

damn, i can’t wait for this to be over