Day: March 16, 2009

A lesson I am trying so hard to learn

Addwag writes via email:

PS i just read your blog-

why in gods name are you emailing me about my stupid questions when you feel terrible? although I appreciate it, please next time, it can wait, I promise..  send me an email that says something like (I will write it so you can just paste the reply in)

“I feel like shit today and I shouldn’t be on my computer so ping me another day when I don’t feel like I am dying of a rare disease you get from monkeys in the congo”

sorry- but us overachievers have got to learn to force ourselves to stop working sometimes.. xoo

if there is anything I can do for 2,000 miles away let me know, promise?

It is all a front

On Mar 15, 2009, at 12:27 PM, PD wrote:

i think b/c your studio work seems productive i assumed that you were feeling better. but i know you well enough to know that i might have been off on that assumption.

Yeah, duh! Of course it is all a front. It is all a way of me thinking that I am okay. Studio production is up, therefore I must be okay. Both telling the outside world, and telling myself. If I keep acting like I am fine I will be fine. (Lie.)

But these last two months have been really hard. And i’ve worn myself down.

And I’m pretty much going to spend the day in bed today. sick to my stomach. exhausted. my skin is falling apart.